Apologies from Heaven

“I’m sorry that I left you. That I took off and forsook you.

I’m sorry that I chose to misunderstand you. I’m sorry for being a butte when it mattered the most not to be.

I’m sorry that I never went back to see you again. To tell you that I really missed you.

I’m sorry that I let you down. I’m sorry I was unkind.

I’m sorry that It seemed like I forgot you. You were unforgettable.

I’m sorry that I hurt you. I regretted it every day.

I’m sorry that I went on without you. You were always inside me.

I’m sorry that I was not really what you needed, or at times, wanted. It seemed that way…

I’m sorry that I disappointed you. I didn’t know just what to do.

I’m sorry that I couldn’t hear you. I let myself get distracted, but your voice was with me.

I’m sorry that I ignored you. Again, I was a butte…

I’m sorry that I didn’t apologize to you. I was my own fool.

I’m sorry that I ‘didn’t love’ you… You didn’t know that I really did–always love you–It was hard for me to show it.

I’m sorry that I didn’t seem to trust you. I didn’t trust myself.

I’m sorry that I wasn’t there for you. I’m waiting here for you.

I’m sorry that I lost the days that I could have really lived. Maybe it’s why God decided to take me on home; I’ll know eventually–soon.

I’m sorry that I blamed you, for things that really weren’t your fault. I chose to be dumb.

I’m sorry that I never saw you again, that this happened, that it was the end. That I waited too long.

There are no tears where I am. Even though you are crying; I can hear you.

I’m there for you, now.

Thank you for your love.

Thank you for your forgiveness.

Thank you for your time.

Thank you for your effort.

Thank you for liking me.

Thank you for never leaving me–though I left you standing there alone.

I’ll see you again…my apologies from Heaven.

I will always love you.”

(Covid patient who couldn’t say goodbye)

Apologies from Heaven.